God keeps score? Is that what Easter tells us? Or is that what the world tells us?
The world tells us we have to achieve, we have to make the grade, we have to be somebody. We need a stellar curriculum vitae, we need to score more points than the other guy, we have to perform at the top of our game, fulfill our potential, summit the mountain...or we're nobody. If we live in the wrong neighborhood, have the wrong job, drive the wrong car, go to the wrong college, have the wrong major, wear the wrong clothes...we're nobody.
My earthly father once told me, "No one remembers who finishes second."
My heavenly father tells me, "My Son died for you."
The world told this woman she had to save a certain number of people--an unspecified quota--or she would burn in hell. Perhaps you've encountered this attitude of earned salvation yourself. Perhaps you are gay, or you got divorced, or you have a tattoo, or you don't belong to the right church, and someone made you feel ashamed and inadequate. A twelve-year-old girl once told my son he would go to hell because he wasn't in church every Sunday. My college roommate was told she would go to hell by her Pentecostal boyfriend because she was Catholic.
These judgments are based on what the world tells us, they incite fear and shame rather than trust or faith, and they work against God's glory.
God is the judge, and His mercy is boundless. Thanks be to God!
Easter teaches us that it's not our job to save anybody. That's God's job, and He already did it. When we start thinking we have to do something spectacular to earn our salvation or that salvation hinges on a particular prayer or practice or accomplishment we must perform...that's when we forget what Easter means.
God Self-Limited, in the form of Jesus, came to an earth so broken and sinful that it could never get itself out of the pit. But God loved us anyway. That love, that blood shed on the cross...it's done and cannot be undone. When we truly understand the depth and breadth of God's love for us, in our bones and hearts and heads, our only sensible reaction is gratitude and humility. We know we don't deserve to be loved so much. We will never deserve it. We can never earn it. And we can never expect others to earn it or deserve it, either.
God created us so He could love us and so we could love Him, each other, and ourselves.
That's the point: Love.
We aren't here to save other people. We are here to love everyone, to pour God's abundant love into the world and onto the hungry, the sad, the angry, the naked, the sick and hurt so that His love can feed, encourage, soothe, clothe, heal. And as people are fed, encouraged, soothed, clothed, and healed, they see God at work, the Spirit moves in their hearts, and they learn what Easter means for them.
We just have to be conduits for God's love. And as God is our witness, that is so very hard. It takes a lot of work to love some people, a lot of grace and mercy and forgiveness, and sometimes, we just don't have it in us. People will be so unlovable. You will be so unlovable. I will be so unlovable. We will always finish second to Jesus.
And that's just fine. We are, after all, Christ-followers. The best we can do is obey his new commandment, to love one another. By that, we glorify Him. By that, others will be drawn to Him.
How have you encountered humans judging you in God's name? Did it lead you to God or separate you from Him? What led you to God? How were you brought to know your salvation? Who loved you all the way to faith? How can you love others to faith?
If you have doubts or shaky faith, know that we all do at times. Talk to your pastor or any pastor or Christian friend. If you meet with judgment, find someone else to be that conduit of love for you.
Beautifully written Susan. Maybe I'm sensitized by an Anne Lamott article in Salon yesterday, an excerpt from her book Small Victories. She quoted Paul Tillich, who said the opposite of faith is not doubt; it is certainty.
ReplyDeleteI read that article, too, and the quote from Paul Tillich gave me goosebumps. It made me think of a recent happening in our church's youth group. One young man expressed doubts about God, and his peers responded with meanness and exclusion. The adults had to guide them to a place of compassion and care. It's a lesson to us all.
DeleteI have always enjoyed reading your thoughts, but this was particularly wonderful. Thank you for all of your insights, humor and honesty.
ReplyDeleteYou're welcome, Lynn. Thank you for reading and taking time to comment!
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